Every once in a while, I get profoundly bored. This happens usually whenever I've fully concentrated my time and energy on various activities (listen to all the albums I've had on my backburner, watch everything I haven't seen in some director's filmography... this sort of thing), only to realize that these are just things to do to occupy all the free time I have, and that these activities have no real meaningful purpose. This occurs every once in a while. Usually when it happens, I reevaluate everything and try to figure out a project/activity that might be more substantial.

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That is a lie. Most of the time I usually just complain about it. And then find something stupid to do.

For instance, I've been thinking recently about completely revamping my "favorite albums of all time" list. Which is pretty much pointless, since a) the only reason I'd really be doing it is because I like playing with lists, and b) perhaps a total of two people would have much interest in it (you know... the two people that read this). But I was thinking about reevaluating everything, going through what my original list was to determine whether or not I actually hold it in that high of regard... that sort of thing.

This is the type of activity I'll probably find myself pouring needless hours into now that I'm having my occasional crisis.

Another thing I've been thinking about is trying to complete another screenplay. (I guess I intend it to be for television, so it's really a teleplay... we'll just call it a script.) But it's actually something that I've started writing and subsequently failed to finish on two separate occasions. And the script I completed was just a different story with the same characters from the aborted scripts. I'm not really excited to restart this, but I thought of a better beginning... although I still lack a middle and end. So essentially this probably won't solve anything.

I was trying to figure out today why I was continuing on with this site. I think I keep writing just because I hope that eventually I'll find that niche that'll give me a sense of direction, and then exploit that as far and as much as I can. It hasn't really happened yet. I thought about maybe restarting with a different site, just in case a simple web relocation does wonders... but, it won't. So screw it.

There's not a lot of point to this. There's not a lot of point to pretty much anything I write nowadays, although really I'm not too broken up about it. I hope the two of you don't mind too much either.

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Here's a song.