August 22nd:

-I'm sitting here before I have to go to work and my girlfriend is playing Super Mario Galaxy (not the new one, mind you--the first one that she still has yet to complete), and I have really nothing better to do than write, so here we go.

I've been trying to find some sort of direction for perhaps the past few months (years, decades...) and been failing miserably at doing so. I have also been trying to find some reasonable source of income for the past few months, and failing at that as well. Any other possible ventures I may have undertaken over the course of the past few months=probably haven't turned out terribly well either.

I'm assuming it all boils down to a lack of drive and a lack of confidence. It'd be super great if I could find a way to change all that, but it's kind of hard to do that without something giving you a sense of hope or purpose or whatever. I'm trying to enjoy things regardless, but sometimes everything seems to be such a downer.

I think one of the bigger problems is that I haven't just quit my job yet, which--despite the fact that it is money no matter how little money it is-- contributes absolutely zero to my self worth and has made me pretty much complacent in trying to find any other source of income. Not that I'm expecting to find anything that will contribute anything to my self worth or my wallet, but still... I think a clean slate might be--maybe not essential, but perhaps a good way to refocus and start feeling decent again.

-I'm contemplating selling items I find around thrift stores and sales online as a way to make a little bit of a profit, but I have absolutely no idea where I would begin. I figure something terrible would happen--maybe I'd have nothing sell, or I'd sell something and they somehow get broken from point A to point B, so... yeah.

-I have no idea where Sara ran off to...

-I had an amazing sandwich today. Not that it's terribly important or anything, but you know. Just so you can be jealous. And actually, I had pretty much the exact same sandwich last night as well... I was going to buy some bread at the store last night when I saw that there was a buy one get one free coupon for the bread I was going to get. It was a small victory for me.

And now I'm off to work... which is unfortunate because it means I will miss BRETT FAVRE'S FIRST PRESEASON GAME IN OVER A YEAR!

Or it means I'll miss the first place Twins increase their division lead by one. Or Mad Men. Or it means I'll miss not working in general, because I meant to request today off just because I hate working Sundays (only I accidentally requested Saturday off. Sigh.).